I'm disappointed.

I really wanted to go to our Cavite trip today but sadly, I wasn't able to. Something came up.

I was near to tears when my dad said I should not go. I was really looking forward on going. I wanted to, i really do. Why does my dad have to be a spoiler?! But then I thought, maybe this isn't for me, because if it was, I'll be in Cavite now having fun no matter what circumstance may arrive. I think it's a sign that I should not. I dunno know, maybe it is.

I have proven that water is really one of the basic necessities of human beings. Just like what happen here last Sunday. Man, people will kill for it and I mean it. I'm not kidding, they will do anything for it. I'm not quite sure if people living here have attitudinal problems or what. I mean, water comes to them not them coming to it. Can't really explain much but all I can say is that they got big issues.

Now, I'm kinda sad that I'm stuck here at home. The TV broke, got no choice on watching tv on the other room. So I decided to use the internet again, that's what I always do.

Got a text message from my good friend, Miguel. He said we were featured in the school paper. The time when we went to CSA for the first ever Agustinian Convention. I had tons of fun there and made new friends. Elise is one of them, and she's the one whom I got close with. Dunno why. Maybe because she's really friendly. I find her nice though. Well, I'm excited to see the issue. =)

Ahh, I'm bummed. Sad. Still hungry. Bored. That's pretty much it.

Confused.

That's what I'm feeling right now. I'm quite confused with stuff. Well, a lot of things I guess. I don't know why. Actually there are a lot of things I don't know yet. I need to do something that would actually make me happy.

To be satisfied, to be contented. Yeah that's what I need.

I want to do something but after starting it for like about ten minutes. I suddenly felt like stopping. Like a while ago, I wanted to read the book written by Homer. After reading, I find the words so hard to understand. Then, I stopped. Then I felt like drawing, then I stopped. Then I felt like reading again but this time reading speeches from a debate book.

Now, here I am infront of the PC typing my blog. I just hope I'd finish this before I get bored.

There's this other problem with me. I get bored easily. I start with something I find so cool and the next minute, it's the lamest thing ever to come inside my mind. I guess that's just being part of a growing me. Confused with a lot of things.

My parents kept on insisting that I should take up Nursing when I go to college. It's just 2 years from now, then I'll be off to college. I want to take up Law or maybe Political Science because my passion is the law. But then I changed my mind. I want to be an educator. But let's be practical, there's no money in teaching and I'm pretty sure that I wont like my beautiful long hair turn into gray. But then again, I'm still baffled. Baffled with what I want to take up. I'm not quite sure if Nursing will be my course. But that's what my parents told me to. I guess it's my way of showing my gratitude to them for all the things they've done for me through the years. One more thing, I want to go to US and start a new life there for my parents. I want them to experience luxury and to the point that they wont worry for me anymore but the other way around. I want to give them a home where they can be relaxed and feel at ease. But Mass Communication is my other Passion. When I got to college, I'll be pursuing that but I guess I have no choice but to take up Nursing. Ahh whatever.

Enrichment was over. A lot of things learned, a lot of techniques was taught and a lot of outfits worn.

There was one time that our teacher asked us to write a reaction paper based from the poem she had read. Well, I did write what my reaction was. So she asked us to read it in class. So, when it was my turn, I felt quite confident with myself. After I read my reaction, our teacher told me that I had potential in writing. ME?! A potential journalist and writer someday. I can still remember the days when tears rolled down my face. But enough about that. This school year, I plan to join our school paper organization called Feedback. Hey I should. She was a former moderator of it, said I have the potential, so why not? I'll show them what I got. Then I'd probably join the Forensic Society. Then I'll be one of the debaters in school.

Yesterday (May 16), I get to watch PBA in Araneta Coliseum together with my cousins and bro. I was so excited to see the players just walking by. Especially Rich Alvarez who I find so cute! I also saw James Yap, I find him "jologs" before because of the ways he speaks. But now, I find him alright. Some players from Purefoods are also way cuter especially the imports! Good thing we were seated behind the ring where I can see the players go during the start of the game, half time breaks and when the game was finally over.

Today, it was rainy outside. I think a storm is coming up. The environment was kinda cool unlike the summer that was. I can feel the rainy season coming.

It's like officially 27 days until school starts. I'm not that excited anymore unlike my elementary years. I guess its a part of growing up. I can still remember way back when I was in my gradeschool years, the month of April was all about school stuff being complete. But everything has changed. Now, I feel like not being ready. I feel like a bum. Everyday, all I want to do is to be infront of the computer. I guess I want to make my vacation days to its fullest. Hey, after vacation I'll be studying again for 10 whole months, full of projects, quizzes, tons of homework and a whole lot of pressure. But it's a student life. I can't change that. All I can do is complete my requirements. Graduate from high school, go to college, get a good job and move to USA. That's it. I don't know. I'm not sure about a lot things yet. Ahh, I'm so confused right now.

Enrichment was totally fun. I really enjoyed learning although I find it hard to wake up early in the morning since its vacation time. But going to school and learning ahead of everyone is really fun. We had a debate last Wednesday but it was cancelled. So our teacher decided to change the motion and we have to use the Asian Parliamentary type of debate. Being the leader of our group, I was supposed to assign my members of what kind of speaker they will be. I assigned the Practicability speech to Mark, my new classmate to be. I must say he was quite good in speaking and I was not wrong to assign that to him. He delivered his speech very well and with enthusiasm. Although it was his first time to experience a debate. He was really good and our Madame Adjudicator said he had potential. Then I assigned the Necessity speaker to April, and to be honest, instead that the topic should be serious, it became a little comedy. Its not that she was making fun of it or anything its just that our teacher cant figure out is she was squireling or what. Anyways, I assigned the Beneficiality Speech to Jameson. Another new classmate to be. Though he was not really good in speaking, his speech was very impressive. He was an analytical thinker. His speech was totally meaty in a way. Of course it was up to me, the Reply Speech speaker to summarize all our arguments and rebut the flaws of the opposition side. I was a little bit of nervous although I already experience and watched serious debates. I guess you cant erase the fact that no matter how many times you have done something, you cant seem to avoid being nervous and stammering. Wheew. Good thing that we won. By the way we were the government side. Well thats it for now. Im already sleepy. ZZZZzzzzzzzzZZZZzzzzzzzzzZzzzzzZZZZ

There is this big problem with me. There are few times or probably most of the time that when I plan to do something, it turns out to be only in the beginning. Say for example this blog. Yeah, I am online everyday but I cant seem to post any of my blog. Sure there are exciting or maybe boring or simply unexplainable things happening with me every single day. So to start with, I was sick for 3 days and I dont know why. I just woke up last Sunday with a fever already present. I cant stand and I was not feeling very fine. So 3 days of feeling so sick was no fun. I have to be on bed every single minute because I was so weak. But good thing my fever went down and I was starting to gain my strength again. Talk about exhausting.

Our enrichment at school was suppose to start last Wednesday, April 28 but unfortunately it was moved to the following day because it was the rest day for the teachers. Guess what? They are so lucky they were at Boracay for 6 days almost a week! I have been dreaming of going there since my mom's hometown is in Aklan and my mom told me that it was just 1 tricycle away from their home. But unfortunately my dreams are kinda obscure. But anyway I know someday I might be able to go there (woohoo Boracay here I come).

Good thing when Thursday finally arrived, my fever was totally wiped out. I was feeling excited for it and I dont know why. I guess I cant stay at home doing nothing. At least with the help of the enrichment I will be able to gain knowledge and enjoy learning this summer. My brother already told me that I have been studying for almost a year and I should spend my vacation to relax and have fun. But I like to learn. Talk about being a nerdy type of girl. Hey I am not a nerd. I just like to learn more and expand my brain's capabilities. So the first day of enrichment was fun. A little introduction about chemistry, a little recall of what we learned during the past sophomore year we underwent.

The second day (yesterday) was absolutely surprising. At first I didnt expect that 3 teachers would be teaching us English 3 namely Mrs. Baltazar (Journalism stuff), Mrs. Dimaandal (grammar stuff) and lastly Mrs. Angeles (public speaking and debates). Woohoo, waking early in the morning during vacation was really worth it. I felt kind of sorry for my classmates who hesitated to come to the enrichment because they're missing half of their lives. So when Chemistry came, Ms. Luna was in charge. I really find her teaching skills as superb and very exciting. I guess her students find no dull moment with her teaching the subject chemistry. I am really looking forward to be her student this school year. Then with Math, Mr. Almario was in charge. I thought that my sophomore teacher would be in charge but I was wrong. So I was late in Math class. Good thing Mr. Almario did not got mad. He was cool with it. At first I thought he would be such terror from the things I hear from others. But he was actually pretty good and a teacher with sense of humor.

After class, we were asked to sit over at the AVR to be the students for the demo class for the incoming teacher. Well, she was okay and nice. Weve done an activity per group. Our group was assigned to do a doxology and interpretative dance. Well, ours turned out to be pretty good and lively.

Then off I go home. When I got home, my nephews were all set for the mall. I havent got the chance to rest for a moment so again we went to the mall with my bro. I saw some of my former classmates and theyre still the same. we ate at Bacolod chicken inasal and then off to Worlds of Fun. Then to the grocery. I was really tired so when we got home I went straight to bed. I slept for about 5 hours. I woke up 10 in the evening. Then, slept at 1 am.

Today, I feel so bored and people in the chat room are nuts. I really miss Seia my friend. Anyways, I will be using the internet all day just to be in relief. Wheew! Ciao for now!