As I stepped out of the house today, I felt like not going out at all. It was so damn hot!

As much as I wanted to go out and have fun and waste money on unnecessary things - the temperature has kept me from doing so. It gives me the waterworks, the annoyance, the malagkit feeling and laziness. The mall is infested with people who are also tired and bored of their lives. Haha :) And yet, I forgot."Sweldo pala ngayon. Kaya pala." I was soo tired and hungry from standing for an hour. I felt so useless. Only one machine works from all the machines of SM North! I don't want to elaborate further. All I know is that I was soo pissed.

That is when I realized that some people are very INSENSITIVE! Picture this, you wanted to GO badly and as much as you wanted to walk fast and get to the oh-so-heavenly-place-we-girls-are-fond-of-going, people in front of you are like walking under the moonlight, as if they were the only creatures of GOD (not minding if people behind them are late on something or if others mind that YOU don't care at all). This not only happens in person-infested places, even when crossing the street. I mean, what the hell is wrong with you people? Aren't you afraid that any second one of these cars might hit you and take your unhappy and useless lives?

Yes, I am full of annoyance awhile ago but I still searched for lighter things. I'm thankful that my mom took the pleasure to FEED her hungry and annoyed daughter in the mall. I love having moments with my mom. It's like we have the same brain or something. And when I got home, my nephews are there to take the annoyance away with their kisses and pambobola. It's good to have kids around to make you feel happy when your pissed.

Tomorrow would be the opening day of SpiderMan3 and I don't think I'll be one of those people who would rush inside the movie house so as to brag to everyone else that they already watched the film. I'd wait until Saturday. That way, there will no longer be people-infested malls and cinema houses.

Then after that I plan to buy a lot - I sure hope I'd still have the funds for it. Mother's Day is approaching fast and I want to buy something special for my mom. I already know what she wants :)

So now I'm addicted to Ridge Racer. I can't seem to get my hands off the PSP and my nephews seem to love it - since I'm doing them a favor. Haha :) Cyle even told me to finish all of the rounds so they could see all the cars. Sheesh. I only have a couple of hands and they only have 2 thumbs! I can't finish all of them in just a day? Or can I? Hihi :)

ROUTINE for TODAY:

• PSP
• EAT
• Ipod
• Internet
• PSP again
• EAT
• TV
• Bath time
• PSP
• Internet

So that's pretty much my day. Full of interesting activites. My dad even asked me if my back was aching or something because I was totally bumming the whole Saturday. Seniora Charmaine - that's the way people address me here. My parents assure that I do eat on time and that I have all the food I want. Haha :) What a Spoiled me.

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Believe it or not, my dad constantly reminds me of his proposition for me: that I will attain the BF/GF status at the age of 45 and marry at the age of 48. I said: "Madmamadre na lang ako," (actually it already crossed my mind way back in highschool but things change and so as minds too.) Talk about being so late with LOVE. I mean, would I still be fresh by 45? Will guys still like me? Haha :) My silly father. But I know he's just joking and time will come that I will have a boyfriend. Haha. But not within this year or the next. I have no idea at all. Time can only tell. That sounded so cheesy. Hihi :)

photo courtesy of jhong :)

I woke up this morning getting a text message from my blockmate Aikee asking if anybody would love to go out tonight to Eastwood City Libis. That's when it struck me. "Man, I never really had a night life!" I think my last night out was Faith's debut and I tagged my cousin along with me just so someone would bring me home safe and sound. He was cool with it and I can say that he didn't felt OP at all. Thanks to my cousin Vic and his car. Haha :) See the pic? All smiles eh?

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Anyway, I remember my night out with my cousin from the States. I was the youngest. The people who were with me weren't in my age span. Haha. Okay, to give you an idea about that night, well, I was with my sister and her husband, my sister-in-law and my cousin and his wife. Basically their ages are way older than me. To start with, my sister is 10 years older and so as her husband; my sis-in-law is I think 33 and my cousin and her wife are I think 36 or something. Talk about age gap eh? But I had fun with them although we have separate worlds and era. I loved that dinner at the Red Crab in Greenbelt. Food was delicioso! And believe or not, I didn't finished my plate. (Oh yeah, this is indeed a sign that I am no longer that matakaw girl I used to be. Hurray for me.) After that oh-so-heavenly-meal, we went to Malate. I forgot the name of the bar but I remember the place was so crowded. Indeed a TGIF. :)

I just realized that I didn't lived life like a typical 18-year-old partying and drinking and I guess having her own car. But I'm glad I am not. :) I am happy the way I am. People are of different interests anyway.

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Today I almost spent the whole day playing Ridge Racer in my nephew's PSP. It almost felt like my eyeballs are going to pop out any second. I completed Basic Tour, and now I'm on PRO tour 13. Good for me. I'm actually good at it now. My nephews are so darn happy because I already unlocked a lot of rounds and acquired numerous cars already. I never really liked video games before. But I guess when your not doing something, you tend to do things that is way out of your league. I'm excited to actually finish the whole thing (if i can that is).

A lot of things are currently circling in my mind. I miss a lot of people. My friends and I went out the other day (last Monday). We were incomplete though. Richard and Grace weren't able to come.

Reasons?

a.)I've been texting Ariz for like the nth time and no reply. So when Ces texted him again on the day itself if he was coming or not, he said: "Wow, parang on the spot poster making contest lang ah!" So i guess that means he won't be able to come.

b.)Grace on the other hand, is still in Japan. I think it's enough reason why she didn't come.

It was her 18th birthday last Sunday. So apparently, we celebrated at my house without the birthday girl. I miss Grace so much! She has been my friend since the 1st grade and we got along fine. I had to adjust bigtime when she left for Japan.

"Japan Japan sagot sa kahirapan." That's what we use to constantly tell her last year when her departure was nearing. We had plans last year. That her 18th birthday would be spent in Galera - all expense paid by her. Unfortunately, the plans were spoiled. She said she was kinda low on budget and things are not going well with her relationship with her "monster tito" a.k.a. Monster sa Teresa. I think she'll be coming home this October. I'm praying hard for it! Our barkada wont be that much fun without her.

So Summer is totally unique this year. Besides for the fact that it's freaking hot outside, I'm allowed to go out once in a while. Salvation is totally here! The summers I had before aren't that much fun unlike this year. Even though I'm killing time to get the hell out of boredome, I still find this year the best out of the 18 years I spent here on Earth. Haha :)

Just like what I said in my multiply site, the search for something productive is OVER. It finally found me. I am now a certified BABYSITTER. Haha :) I guess this is my calling. LOL. I'm just soo happy that I have four wonderful pamangkins and now I am spending quality time with them. I guess they are the playmates I never really had when I was little since I'm the youngest in our family and the 10-year age gap between me and my sister. Anyway, I love the kids mucho and I hope they grow up to be just like me. Nyak.

TOTAL NEGLIGENCE.

I have stopped blogging for 3 years and now I'm back pursuing my unsuccessful attempt. I already erased some of my blog entries when I was in high school due to the avoidance of bad memories. But I think it's a good thing because I was able to see my improvement in terms of my way of writing. It kinda sounds a bit lame before but hey, I was good. Haha.

Maybe I have reasons why I continued blogging again. Maybe I am a hell of bored like I am right now. Maybe I'm inspired! (I wish). Maybe I've been blog hopping and I envy people for having outrageous blogs! Okay you got me. Yeah, I'm a bit jealous. It has been a long dream to make a very unique blogsite and just be me. But unfortunately I lack time to do so and my Procrastination days aren't over yet. I promised to myself I'll slowly lay it on the down low - procrastination, that is. And now I have all the time in the world to start pursuing my dream. Haha. Good for me. On the other hand, this is one way to drive me out of boredom. Did I spell that correctly? Don't care.

I just hope that this dream would pave it's way inside me and stay there. This layout would serve as a backdrop for the mean time. Actually this is my project in my Computer subject when I was in Senior high school, so I guess it's way too old. But I have no choice. I intentionally uninstalled my Paintshop Pro because it's giving my PC a hard time. Soon, when my Dad buys a new desktop, I'll install Adobe there and make an out-of-this-world layout. Watch out world! Haha.

I hate myself for let's say, destroying my laptop. Actually it's not really destroyed, I just jammed the adaptor and accidentally removed the jack of the charger and when I tried to buy for a new one, it cost way out of my budget. So here I am, useless, full of regret and back to old school PC. I blame myself for that. Haha. I hope my dad would buy a new desktop soon so I would start a new layout for this freaking blog. Who would've thought this still works after 3 years of not visiting. Tsk. Good thing I already have my google account since last last year. Thank you technology.

I need inspiration. I want to discover new things and a path for myself. I want to eat..haha :)