I cried myself to sleep last night after watching Reporter's Notebook. Their topic was all about Metro Manila's public cemeteries and how it's already jam packed with dead people. November 1 is tomorrow and I remembered my uncle who died just over a month ago. Needless to say, I cried after turning off the TV. I cried and cried because I was thinking of him and wondering where he is right now. It's so hard to let go of someone who you knew all your life. I thought it would be simple. There are still times that I would stare into blank and then think of what will happen next.

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I took a shot of the sky just outside our terrace. It looks sad. Maybe because All Saints Day and All Souls Day is nearing. But are we suppose to be sad to remember our loved ones who have passed away? Siguro nga. But is that what they want us to feel? Ewan ko.

This November 1, let us all take our time to pray and remember those who left this earth. I know they're just waiting for us to stop from whatever we are doing and give them at least moments of prayer. After all, it only comes once a year.

Since I'm bored to death. I answered this survey! Woohoo.

List the Top 25 from your Overall Artists list (in no particular order)

1. Paramore
2. Switchfoot
3. Rihanna
4. Dashboard Confessional
5. Crossfade
6. Beyonce
7. The Starting Line
8. The Click Five
9. Swing Out Sister
10. Everything but the Girl
11. Angela Bofil
12. James Morrison
13. John Mayer
14. Up Dharma Down
15. Jennifer Lopez
16. Christina Aguilera
17. Side A
18. Juice
19. The Fray
20. Alicia Keys
21. Pink
22. Maroon 5
23. Nelly Furtado
24. Feist
25. The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

What was the first song you ever heard by 6?
Bills, bills, bills. She was still with Destiny's Child back then in 1999.

What is your favorite album by 2?
The Beautiful Letdown.

What is your favorite lyric that 1 has sung?
"Once a whore, you're nothing more I'm sorry that'll never change" -Misery Business (I totally agree with this.)

"Maybe if my heart stops beating, it won't hurt this much" - Let This Go (If you are heart broken, you might love this.)

How many times have you seen 11 live?
Aww. None! She's like the hit during the 80s! I didn't have the chance to see her live when she went here in Manila last September 2004.

What is your favorite song by 7?
Island. Hurry.

What is a good memory you have involving 20?
Singing moments with classmates during high school.

Is there a song by 3 that makes you sad?
Rihanna? none. All her songs make me happy. Haha!

What is your favorite lyric that 14 has sung?
"Hindi mo lang alam naiisip kita, baka sakali nga maisip mo ako... Hindi mo lang alam hanggang sa gabi, inaasam makita kang muli" - I dedicate this song to Corona Boy. (Sakto lyrics para sa kanya! Haha!)

What is your favorite song by 19?
Hundred and Ocean's Away

How did you first get into 22?
Since they released their first single, I feel in love with the music and the vocalist - Adam. Haha

What was the first song you heard by 21?
"Get the party Started" - way back in my grade school days.

What is your favorite song by 4?
As Lover's Go, Hands Down, Screaming Infidelities, Stolen.

What is a good memory you have involving 13?
Not much. Except, it reminds me of Veronica Mars. Haha.

Is there a song by 23 that makes you sad?
Not sad. Just makes me think - In God's Hands.

What is your favorite album of 15?
Her first album - On the 6 :)

What is your favorite lyric that 9 has sung?
"When explanations make no sense, when every answer's wrong, you're fighting with lost confidence, all expectations come" - Breakout

"If you should ever change your mind, I'll be there just call my name, Until then I'll be playing the waiting game." - Waiting Game

"Friends say I'll get over you soon, thoughts of you come back to fill me with gloom time forgets but I'm not over you yet, there's no sense in asking why until the tears run dry." - You on my Mind

What is your favorite song by 8?
Headlight Disco. Jenny. Just the Girl.

How many times have you seen 5 live?
How I wish!

What is your favorite album by 12?
Undiscovered.

What is a good memory you have involving 25?
Haha! Loudness here at home which my mom doesn't approve. =p

What was the first song you heard by 18?
Best Days! Learned this song through my brother. :)

What is your favorite song by 17?
So Many Questions - the proof of a true Filipino talent. I really love this song, most especially the lyrics.

Set You Free, Tell Me, Forevermore and Maybe.

What is your favorite album by 24?
The Reminder.

How many of your top 25 have you seen live?
None. Ahahaha! Ang loser ko.

Photographed by: myself
Edited by: myself

I wanted to make something meaningful. The same questions have been bugging me. Why do questions always have to be WHY?

I'm still on the verge of understanding how things work in this cruel world. Survival of the fittest as they say in the animal kingdom. I want answers to questions that I've always had since I was little. When I sleep at night, it always take me some time before I actually find the right position to ponder on things. The same goes with what subject to write whenever I get to hold a pen and paper. I'm not troubled or anything. I'm just bothered why things doesn't always have to go your way or why there is always a better plan. And you end up hearing words like "I told you so."

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For the past 18 years of my life, I managed to live a life of not caring about things left unsaid and of questions unanswerable by mere human brains. Is it too late to start caring now? My hopes are up. Giving up was never one of my options. I wish to make the world a better place but what can I possibly do? I'm not some fictional character who has super strength and the ability to fly wherever I want to. I'm just me. But someday I'll make that fictional character a reality.

Out of the many wishes I have, I'd like this one to push through.

Wish ko sana lahat maging masaya. Mawala ang kahirapan. Lahat maging mayaman.

How time flies. I can't believe that tomorrow, Grace will be leaving again for Japan. She might not come back here next year because she plans on spending her next year's vacation in Hawaii. It's sad. Yet I'm happy because at least I've got to spend time with her though I'm not really allowed to go out partying here and there. Hehe. The very least I can do is to mall hop with the rest of the gang, eat our guts out, and spent each minute as if it were the last.

Yesterday was my last lakwacha day with Grace. We went to Galleria around 3 in the afternoon. Man, the streets were jam packed with cars. Erap was finally given the pardon he deserves (or does he?) I really don't have any idea. How can you pardon someone who doesn't even plead himself guilty? Or better yet, how can you jail someone if he wasn't formally impeached? Haha. It makes my brain hurt - just thinking about stupid politics. And history shall remember this again. Anyway, and because Erap was released, traffic empowered Edsa. Because I wanted to get in time, I wasn't able to bring the camera. Schupid! Haha. But nevertheless, we still managed to have fun in Galleria. Miguel was late because it was his enrollment, so we went around a little bit and enjoyed seeing cute guys. Haha. I saw Zeke from the previous PBB Season 2 at Timezone. I didn't actually knew it was him not until Richard told me. But Timezone bored me, so we went to Tom's World instead and had my 'mini concert' there. Nauto nila ko kumanta. Ayan, sobra sobrang pagkanta tuloy. With todo birit effect pa! Hahaha.

To cut it short.

Miguel: late
Us (me, Grace, Ces and Chard): hungry
where to: Teriyaki Boy.
Miguel: Came. Ordered. Ate.
Us: Finally, cinema. UNREST.
And then: Off to Tom's World Again
Me: Concert.
Them: Played
The rest was history.

The worst enrollment experience ever. For the past 3 semesters of enrolling, I didn't experience standing for almost 4 freaking hours just to get enrolled. Grabe sobrang dami ng tao. It wasn't like this before. It was fast and no hassle. Before. But now!!! Why o why?! Plus the rain didn't stopped pouring all day long. WHY? Of all the days you could rain? Why did you pick our enrollment day?!

I didn't actually realized that we were already standing for so many hours because I have my block mates with me. Neverending kwentuhan and kulitan. My feet experienced enormous amounts of pain. Good thing I have slippers with me. PE? HandBall Monday 1-3pm. Huhu. Good luck!

Jong, Me Ann and Me @ Binalot

Me, PenPen, Kristianne, Jong

Mga pagod na!

Kristianne, Me, Vanie and Me Ann

Haha. Super haba pa ng pila.

My 100th post

What better way to celebrate my 100th post here is to post my grades for the 1st semester. Finally, I thought my grade in Finance, NatSci and English would wither away into oblivion but good thing, it didn't. I'm so happy! Basketball grade? UNO. Err. Thanks to our kind professor. My lowest grade is 2. Hehe. Very happy indeed. I hope I could continue these grades this second semester. Oh Lord, you are soo good. Thank you so much. Those sleepless nights paid off. :)

Tomorrow would be the enrollment day and I still can't decide on what PE to take. After all, this is my last PE subject, I want to make it memorable and attend it together with my blockmates. I haven't thought of it yet. Whatever. Can't wait to see my block mates tomorrow! :)

Another group pic.

I'm loving this year's semestral break. Kahit na malapit na ko mamulubi. Oks lang. I never had this much fun with my friends in years.

Yesterday, I had another one of my "adventure moments". First stop: Gateway. Well, I just went inside and roamed around a bit and eventually decided to finally meet Grace and Miguel at SM Centerpoint. Gawd. It's been ages since I stepped foot at Centerpoint. 4 years? Basta. Ever since we moved here in Novaliches, I haven't got the chance to go back. This takes me back to my grade school days, almost everyday I'm with my mom at Centerpoint. She would pick me up from school and we would always eat or shop :) Those were the days. So when I finally met Grace and Miguel, we went straight to the Land Transportation Office in San Juan for Grace's student driver application. She's learning how to drive here so that by the time she goes back to Japan which is by the end of the month, she already know how to drive. Oh yeah. How I wish I knew how to drive. But err, I don't even have my own car. Haha! Time will come that I will have mine. So after waiting for an hour of misery and perspiration, (Darn, there's too many people applying for their license. Sheesh. Talk about an addition to the traffic there is in Metro Manila), victory is ours. Haha! The picture taking for the stupid license only lasted less than a minute. Woo.

Finally. We are back on the road. We went back to Grace's place to freshen up and meet Richard and Ces. The Greenhills adventure began. When we got there, we ate at Italianni's since Miguel had this 500 pesos off certificate crap. Haha. What a dining experience. Food was great and the serving was too big for just one person, service was good, unlimited bread and holy crap - our bill was great too. Hahaha. Curse the 12 % VAT and that service charge. It's a burden to human kind. It's the type of meal experience that when you see your bill, you will have the urge to eat every last bite on your plate just to make every penny worth the eat. Haha! I guess, I will experience another fine dining there when I'm with my parents! Para libre.

Shopping Madness.

After eating, I'm literally pulling my feet just to get to the shopping ville. Maybe because I'm soo full or the fact that the stupid bill was a sad thing? Nevertheless, we managed to enjoy the whole shopping experience and eventually got hungry again - so we decided to chill at Krispy Kreme. Oh Krispy Kreme, how I adore you.

"This donuts are no longer sterile." -Richard (because we are putting our fingers on them.)
"What the heck." - Me

Meryenda time.

(History 101: Way back in High school, whenever the three of us would utter "Meryenda time", this means make-up time or retouch. Woo. Now you know.)

Krispy Kreme Fun.

It was a tiring day but I still managed to buy a gift - my sister's request, because one of Reigne's classmates is going to celebrate her birthday. Thank You Ces for bearing with me at Toys R Us. Haha! Finally. Off to the long journey home.

I would never forget last night. I got hit on by this middle aged guy when I was at the North Ave station of the MRT, waiting for the FX to be filled with people wanting to go home (err, I think he's around his 30s or something). It was very weird and quite funny towards the end. Haha. Here it goes:

Weird Guy: "Miss, RP ba to?"
Me: "Opo."
Weird Guy: "Patabi ha?" with his freaky smiling face (Oh yeah, I was sitting at the back of the FX)
Me: "..." (Since I was weirded out, I decided to keep myself busy by texting and fanning for my life. Since I did that, he asked me...)
Weird Guy: "Mainit ba?", asking me. "Boss, palakasan naman ng aircon, naiinitan tong binibining katabi ko", pertaining to the guy seated in the middle.
Me: "Okay lang po," with awkward face.
Weird Guy: "So galing ka work? Or school?"
Me: "..." I was weirded out again.

I did not say anything again all through out the ride. He was saying a lot of things but I didn't understand half of the things he said. Err. Creepy. Good thing he stopped yapping when he realized I wasn't interested. Hahaha. Funny yet weird and creepy. Haay. Kapagod sobra.

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Today, I went to Ortigas with my sister to collect payments from their transport service at a company near Galleria. After that, she kept complaining that she was hungry, so we decided to go to Galleria. I wasn't expecting that today would be the start of the 3-day sale. So what the heck. Had fun with my sister, she bought me shirt from Fila, Thank you Ate. Bought myself a pair of pants, shopping again. Ate at Teriyaki Boy. Sad thing about Glorietta 2. Kaya pala ang traffic kanina papunta. Good thing, today is not the day I had the urge to go there. Let's all pray for the safety of everyone else.

I made this presentation for my beloved block 2CA1. We have 3 semesters down and 5 more to go. More memories for sure! I love this block. Woohoo.

Show me some skin. Haha

*Nagfeeling ako na ngayon ang birthday ko kahit hindi naman.* My birthday is not until January 23rd and yet, today my barkada gave me a birthday cake. Incidentally, I wore red :) Haha! Saya. They came over today around lunch time and we feasted with my mom's cooking. Baked Macaroni, Korean Bbq, Inihaw na Bangus, Siomai, Manggang Hilaw with Bagoong - are among the food we had a contest on. Hahaha. How I miss the days. It's sad that my best friend Nazi couldn't join us for some reason.

Birthday cake ko. Hahaha

Ces, Grace, Chard
Me and Miko

Kalokohan.

Nagfrfriendster lang yan.

With my nephews =)

We reminisced our high school days... the contests and projects we had to undergo, the people we hate (haha, I would be a hypocrite if I say I liked everyone back then), our weird teachers, the "links" and relationships, and all that gossiping. It's pretty much constructive criticism.

HERE are some of the memorable stuff we shared:

"Ma'am AYAW bumukas nung locker eh..." - this line was pertaining to our second yr Filipino teacher Ma'am Bautista who we always annoy every morning with the locker thing. We pretend that we can't open the freakin' lockers so we end up pounding it that almost ate the Filipino time. Haha. We also sing "Happy Birthday" every time she enters our classroom and point out at someone every day that it's his or her birthday. She actually believed it for the first few weeks but she got annoyed by the end of the school year. Funny moments.

"8 Waves, Hamburger, WASZAH 11, Cheering Competition" - all of these were second year stuff. This was when I was hated by my classmates for some unknown reason or is it because I topped the class and I was a new student? I really don't know. But that that was just in the beginning, towards the end of the school year, we all became friends. LESSON: Don't judge someone without really knowing who that person is. Bad yun.

"Sayawit - Magka-Ugnay: SISIG 5, Hollowmen, Sabayang Bigkas - Republikang Basahan: InARUSH24" - who could actually forget these memorable experiences? We end up fighting over a stupid choral recitation and interpretative dance all for the sake of getting high grades and of course for our PRIDE. We all remembered the late night practices at Anthony's home and overnight stays. I miss those days. We also established "secret" meetings against the group leader because we do not approve of the whole concept and the In A Rush 24 who sticked together until the end.

"CMLI 2005" - I wasn't able to join this congress at Baguio. Ang mahal kasi. Plus the fact that I just arrived also from Baguio that time from attending the Recollect Augustinian Youth Summit held in Casiciaco Recoletos Seminary the week before CMLI. Besides, the day of their departure was the day KYLA together with MTV will tour around Baste to reminisce Kyla's high school moments. Me and Ces were tasked to "escort" and show them around school. It's as if they would get lost inside, it's not that big. But anyhow, we still managed to have fun without them. I think CMLI was the time that one of my Barkada, Grace, started out the relationship with someone. Err. I won't mention his name. I think it's pretty obvious who that guy is (for my high school classmates and batchmates). It was a great feeling to make her remember those times. May iba kasi kameng gusto ipaalala eh. Basta. Secret na yon.

"PROM '05 and PROM '06, our misunderstood section ST.AUGUSTINE '06, the controversial Class picture and our adviser." - This was I think, the most memorable of my whole stay at Baste. The prom and all that glamour. Oh yeah, when we were in fourth year, we accidentally pushed our adviser during our wacky take in the class picture sooo far from where we are posing. It came to the point that her slip ons were ruined and she took it so seriously or maybe she was really hurt? It was a sad class picture. Because of that accident, our 4th yr class picture came out with just ONE or maybe two shots from the whole bunch of poses we made. But thinking about it now, it was quite funny. Haha. How the heck did we manage to push our adviser? I remember we tried to explain the accident with the use of Physics theories - Pauline came up with that. Hahaha. At least, we are applying what we learn in school from our day to day experiences. But pushing your adviser is not a day to day experience. It's actually one in a million. Haha.

There were a lot more things we shared but I guess I am now too lazy to write them all. It was good to remember all those stuff and now just laugh about it. Ang dami palang nangyari nung high school. Pero ayoko ng bumalik. Haha. Mahirap high school eh, dameng projects tapos whole day pa. But I agree - high school definitely is the most fun stage :) College is great too but the fun fact is that you have that "so high school attitude". It's where the fun all began - from the kid attitudes. Haha!

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Totoo kaya to? I read my horoscope and it goes like this:

Distraction is not what you need right now! Keep your head down and keep going. There is too much going on in your life for you to be concerned with what is going on in other people's lives right now, so avoid any distractions. Juicy-sounding tales of romance or turmoil might seem like a very welcome distraction from what you are trying to deal with, but distraction is not what you need right now! Keep your head down and do not get sucked into the daily soap opera around you. There is not point getting down in the dirt -- keep your eyes on the stars.

Distractions? What distraction? Err. Sino kaya o anong distraction 'to?

I found this so-called letter from my Friendster inbox dated years ago. When I first read it, I was infuriated, really. Haha. I hate the person who sent me this letter so much that I tend to release all the anger and exasperation whenever I see him or whenever he tries to get near me. Haha. *Ang feeling kasi tapos ang yabang pa. Sino ba namang di maaasar don diba?* But the other day when I read it again, I laughed my butt off and asked myself, "Why did I even waste my time being mad at this guy?" That was pure evil. I know. But sometimes, a person has to confront another to make him realize that not everything he plans falls into place. Sometimes, you just have to show it to his face that NO, I DON'T LIKE YOU AT ALL. Hahaha. Soo mean!

Anyway, here's the letter. *I decided not to reveal the name of the sender. My high school classmates and friends probably know this guy (definitely). Besides, it's kiddie stuff. Soo high school.* I posted this not to humiliate or make a fool out of someone, this is just to remind the boys out there not to expect and don't believe in your ego too much. It's bad. Tsk tsk. It can cause you pain... And might result to tons of annoyance from other people. I lifted the letter as is. Meaning: walang edit, walang pagbabago, walang dagdag.

From: ***************************

Date:	Sunday, 17 April, 2005 1:56 PM
Subject:	I don't quite understand you!
Message:	I'm glad that you did not block me eventhough you have deleted my account. I know that I deserved it. You are probably angry with me until now but there is one thing that bothers me. You see! Since the day that you have cutted almost every connection between me and you my pride took over me. I asked myself why am I crazy for someone who always taked me for granted, one who never appreciated a thing that I have done for her. Since that incident I wanted to forget everything about you, when you come close I avoided you, when I hear your voice I tried not to listen. But after a few weeks I have noticed something. I don't know if its just me but I noticed that the more I avoided you the more you catch my attention. I don't know what to think. Why did'nt you avoid me anymore? Do you finally appreciated my affection for you? Do you want to make up with me? Do you want me to love you again? or Do you want me to be your friend? I am an ordinary person. I can not read minds. So tell me what does your actions really mean? You don'y need to answer this question but I will really appreciate it if you do. I will predict what's on your mind. "WHY THE HECK WILL I REPLY WITH YOUR MESSAGE?" The answer is simple. That is because you could have the feeling that you helped man who is in need of answers. If you have noticed I am trying to change my image to be more deserving of you. This year I may not be as friendly as I am in the past. I may be the biggest jerk that you will ever see.You know what I am trying to despise you but who am I kidding but myself. I miss you! I sincerely wanted you to be my friend like in the past. Please tell me before its too late that my pride change me into a very bad person. Remember "Minsan lang kitang iibigin" hehe! Sincerely yours : )

Hahaha. Corny no? My my. Enough said.

It was one weird morning today. What's more weird is that I remember what I dreamt of and it was definitely clear up to now. It was all a mixture of my experiences in life. I clearly remember the portals of the school where I studied elementary. Some of the scenes in my dream involved much of my classroom when I was in the 2nd grade (St. Francis of Assisi). Characters were pretty much familiar too. Some of them were the ones I never really got the chance to talk to or those whom I never got close with. What a weird dream. With just a snap, I was already in Baguio. Memories of my experiences in the 2005 Recollect Augustinian Youth Summit. Haha! Dreams are so weird. I don't know what it wants to tell me. Should I be worried?

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Yesterday, I woke up with a butterfly inside the room. I don't know how it got there since all the windows were closed and I'm pretty sure that the door is closed too. I think it all makes sense. I realized that I dreamt of my uncle who passed away just three weeks ago. Maybe it was him, guarding me while I sleep. I'm sure, to where he is right now, I know he's happy. He wanted to say a lot of things but it was too late for that. I too have a lot to say to him, but I didn't have the time to do that. From his last moments here on earth, my presence was enough for him. To tell you the truth, I miss him. I miss how he sometimes annoys me in his little ways. I just realized that those would never happen again. It just sinked in that he is totally gone. I would never lay eyes on him again. He did great things as an uncle. He didn't have much but most of the time, he buys things for us. He always thought of us first - his nieces and nephews and even the grandchildren. But everyone needs to say goodbye at some point in their lives. All we have to do is cherish every moment and make sure that each minute is spent with love and care.

I manage to take a picture of it without making it fly away.

Because it's already the start of the semestral break... it's the start of lakwacha!!! After several months of being away, finally. We had another one of our barkada moments. =) I missed them soo much - food trips, movie watching, boy watching, gay? detecting, and a lot more. Especially Grace, who has been my friend since the first grade, whose just taking a 3 week vacation here in the Philippines. Waah! We should spend every minute like there's no tomorrow! We went to Grace's place first and then we went for an adventure trip to Trinoma. Woo. *Tinatamad na ko magsulat. Pichurs na lang. Haha!*

First stop: Grace's place

Escalator trip.

Meryenda time =)

Ice cream time

Bench models. Haha

Mga OT =)

Haha! Yon.

I missed this girl sobra!
Grace. My friend since 1st grade

Sa wakas. Matapos ang apat ng buwan na kalbaryo at ilang linggong walang tulog, I say hello to my bed again. Hello pillows, its nice to hug you guys again and to my ever so comfortable bed - so we meet again... Hahaha. Tagalog-ness muna ko ngayon. Masyado akong masaya eh =)

Hello there sleeping blog... Wakee wakee! Ang sarap ng feeling na tapos na ang lahat... Wala ng quizzes, recitations, assignments, projects, essays at kung anu-ano pang kalokohan na maisip ng mga propesor para gawing miserable ang buhay nating mga estudyante. Sa wakas! Sem Break na! Masaya ako. Pero parang sa ngayon, hinahanap hanap ko pa rin yung mga ginagawa ko. Nasanay na ko na kung hindi ako nakaharap sa computer para may iresearch o di kaya naman ay magtype ng esssay at assignment, eh may hawak akong notes at nagrereview dahil may test kinabukasan. In fairness, mamimiss ko yun! Tatlong linggo rin akong walang aatupagin na ganon. Oh well. Lakwatcha na! Yes. Excited na ko.

Masasabi ko na ayos lang naman ang pagsasagot ko sa mga nakaraang mga exam. Kahit na kinulang ako sa oras sa History sapagkat napadaming tanong na ibinato sa amin dun at may 20 points pang extra test sa likod dahil "quiz" daw namin yon. Haay. Minadali ko na lang kasi nakita ko, 45 minutes na lang ang natitira para sa susunod kong exam. Eh Finance pa naman yon! Argh. Kaya yung huling test, eh hinulaan ko na lang, tutal matching type naman siya. Siguro may tatama naman don kahit papano. Haha! Ayos lang Finance, pero hindi ako sigurado sa mga pinagsasagot ko dun. Woo. Tapos kahapon, yung NatSci at English - pwede na. Ganon pa rin yung test type sa English, nako, feeling ko walang kwenta na naman iskor ko dun. Hahaha. Ayos lang, di ko naman yun inaral eh kaya wala akong hard feelings.

Pero nung umagang yon, walang kapantay ang sayang naranasan ko. Yeeees. Kahit na napahiya ako sa harap ni Corona Boy, ayos lang! Sobrang halata na ata ako, bahala siya. Wala akong paki. Haha! Sabay pinakilala pa siya sa akin. Grabe! Tapos hindi ko naman inaasahan nung bandang hapon na siya rin ang makakasabay kong mag special test sa Computer. Yung kabog ng dibdib ko parang wala ng bukas! First taym ko ata maexperience ang sobrang kinabahan ako dahil sa isang guy. Homaygad. Ano kaya ibig sabihin nun? Nagbabago na nga ba ang "Meng" na kilala ko?! Well, iba nagagawa niya eh. Isa't kalahating taon ko na siyang crush, weh. Haha. Tapos ganon pa rin yung effect niya sa tuwing nakikita ko siya. Woo. Lebel up na 'to! Pero sa totoo lang nahihiya pa rin ako. Haha. Wirdo.

Kanina, puro kalokohan yung istoritelling namin sa Filipino. Haha. Peste, ako pa unang tinawag, eh di pa nga ako nakakaupo ako agad una! Pero ayos na rin. Masaya. Kaya lang nabagot ako nung bandang gitna na. Sakit pala sa ulo makinig ng isang damakmak na kwentong-barbero ng mga kaklase mo no? Yung iba, seryoso. Tulad ng akin. Seryosong kengkoy na hindi mo maintindihan. Maganda yung kay Chandz. Nabuhay dugo ko nung nagkukwento na siya. "Mega Throwwww!" Saya nun. Tsaka yung kay Me Ann... "Hala ka, ililigaw ka rin nila tulad ng ginawa nila sa pusa ni Aling Miling." *May wirdong accent pa yon kaya sobrang natawa ako* Akalain niyo yun, yung ipis na pilay may accent! Hahaha. Tsaka pinakakwela sa lahat eh si "Pepeng Malupit at ang Landas patungong Novaliches Bayan!" Panalong kwento yun. Kagabi nung pinabasa ni Nico yun, wala akong humpay sa kakatawa. Kaya nga naubusan ako ng lakas para magreview sa Computer. Pero ayos lang dahil madali lang test kanina. Haha! Pinagtatalunan pa kung bakit walang letter E sa choices, eh kasi naman, wala naman talaga dapat E. Haha!

Masyado akong overwhelmed ngayon. Goodbye school work. Hello Fun Fun Fun. Lakwatcha naaaa!

It's been one hell week. I'm always sleepy and I can't seem to find strength. It was a good thing that I got enough sleep last night. 8pm-8am sleep. How I longed for you. Hurray. Today, I spent the entire day on the Block with my parents. Fun. Busog! I sure hope there would be more next times.

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Umm. I went to Baste last Wednesday to visit my high school memories and my teachers. Err. Not really. Haha. Jolas asked me if I could go with him to get his transcript of high school, so I agreed. Actually, I didn't want to the night before he asked me, I gave him a condition. If it rains, I won't go. But if it doesn't, then it's settled. But the sun shone so bright, so I had no choice. Haha. Mean! =)

It was nice seeing again my former school. I've realized that I do have a lot of teachers whom I got closed with and it seems that everyone missed me. *Aww how sweet*. Kainggit sila. May plasma TV pagpasok mo ng Recto gate tapos airconditioned na yung canteen. Haha. Why didn't they implemented that when we were still studying there? Poor ol' us. Then we went to Gateway (together with one of my barkada, Ces) and ate at Bacolod Chicken. Syempre nilibre nila ko diba. Haha!

I enjoyed it... But still incomplete though. Something was still missing. Why can't I feel it?! Please Lord, give me a sign...

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This week is Finals week. It's not a hell week. I don't really know. Maybe I am just excited to see Grace and my barkada and go out and parteeh! Haha. I'm soo looking forward to the last day of exams. Woo. Sembreak here I come!!!

It just sinked in that today would be the last meeting of Basketball. Sheesh. I was looking forward to playing today but our professor gave us a stupid test instead. (Darn test. 100 items?!) Haha! Then after we took that test, he let us go home. Just like that.

But we did not go home just yet. It's the first day of October and yet everything feels so gloomy. Maybe because of the rain that has been pouring nonstop since the weekend started. Who would've thought, of all the places in the university, the main building would be a great place to have a serious girl to girl talk with Me Ann. Yes. Indeed. We had a serious conversation on topics like love, life and school. Haay. It feels good to reminisce the past although some memories are not worth remembering. But one thing I learned from Me Ann is that we should let go of what had happened in the past and the best way to forget it was to accept that it actually happened and have to courage to talk about it. =)

Random thought:

*How can you know that the right one has come? How will I set the standards? Is giving a shot an option?*