Haggard

What has kept me from blogging for the past week was all that pressure and responsibility I had to face. Collecting money here and there, making arrangements for the transportation and all that school work all at the same time. It felt like I was working already - working to finish studying. How ironic.

But finally, the much awaited DZRH and ABS-CBN tour is over. I had fun even though I had to collect thousands of filthy money for our transportation. I swear that I don't want to touch that much amount of money anytime soon. It makes me weak. So weak, that I can't think straight. Worrying and all that. But at last, it all paid off (literally and figuratively). And now, I am running out of words to say. Let the pictures speak for themselves. Special thanks to Ms. Cookai Talusan and Adrian Pacific Ong for the pictures. I'm still anticipating for the pictures from Angie's cam because I had tons of photos in her camera! Including the one with Nicoleyala, Mirmo and friends and the one where we were on the Wowowee set. I enjoyed the tour! Kahit na behind schedule kame dahil sa ABS. Haha!

With Chris Tsuper of Love Radio
(mega hug?)

Radio Drama Studio
(Pedro, sinasakal mo na ko, *cough cough*)

ABS-CBN NewsCenter Camera

Maalaala Mo Kaya Set
Dear Charo...

Lights, Camera, Action!
Kawawa naman yung cam, so old.

1 versus 100 set
I will take the mob!!!

The ABS-CBN NewsCenter
Nag-uulat!

ABS-CBN
Kapamilya ako eh. Haha!

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Speaking of responsibilities - I have faced so many responsibilities all my life, and now here comes another one, bigger than the present one I have. I don't know if destiny wants me to be always in it. As I've stated in my previous entries, I have been doing this kind of work and responsibility since third grade and no matter how hard I try to stay away from it, it just keeps finding its way back to me. It's more like, something I can't run away from. It keeps haunting me and somehow magnetizes me to be part of it. Oh well, I won't lose anything if I did, would I? I'll find out soon.

Emo Moment. Super pagoood.

Happy Birthday to Me :)

Well, I'm another year older and considering this year would be my last year for teenage fun, it's kinda sad. But I'm very happy for all the efforts of everyone who were able to make me smile and feel special. From the bottom of my beautiful sexy heart, THANK YOU! Thank you for the greetings and text messages. I really do appreciate it.

Blowing of my cute cake :)

I'm not ready yet :)

At Home, marami ako bisita. Oo. Puro bata! Haha. Simple birthday celebration lang. Who would have guessed that I'm already 19? Mukha akong 14. Weh! Hahaha. Pagbigyan. It's my birthday! Woohoo.

Munting mga bata. Oo, kabilang ako don.

Ano kaya masarap kainin? *My cousin Vic and Cyle*

Candid?

Photos

Over the weekend, a lot happened. Too lazy to write. It was very tiring but I had loads of fun. Let's start with Me Ann's debut. :) January 19, 2008 night @ Regalia Park :)


Then early morning, the following day, I had to go to Anawim Lay Foundations Inc at Montalban, Rizal for our Institution Visit for CWTS. :) It was a very enlightening experience.

Will update more.

Goody Goody?

I always wondered what my life would be if I hadn't live to the expectations of the many. Since elementary I was like this. I would cry at night if my requirements for tomorrow's assignment aren't complete. I would tell my mom "Basta Mama, kelangan na yan bukas. Hindi ako matutulog!" I was always the goody goody girl who gets recognition for having the complete attendance - without lates and absences and always doing the right thing. I was always a student leader. I started to run for the school's student council when I was just 9 - in third grade. I enjoyed it though. I enjoyed what I was doing.

If I get a low grade on a test - it was a big deal for my teachers and some of my classmates back then. Tss. Sometimes I was sick of it. It pressured me. By the sixth grade-- I had to study more. Requirements, tests, contests, quiz bees, meetings, class presidency and more activities. It all paid off on graduation day. I walked the graduation ceremony as the batch's valedictorian. But I was pissed. The nuns didn't give me the chance for a valedictory speech. They said, we were Lower Basic Education - we were lucky enough that we had a graduation ceremony together with the High school. Meaning, we don't deserve a graduation rite. So much for all my sacrifices. Nevertheless, I was happy. It was enough that my parents were with me on stage, sinusuot sa akin ang mga medalya, pangarap ng daddy ko yun eh. Yes, it was his dream to go on stage while his daughter is being recognized.

My freshman year was basically the same. Still on top of the class. But it has to come to an end. Or so I think. I changed schools and I ended up in Baste, where my Kuya and Ate went to. I thought I would have a hard time fitting in. Yes, I did have a hard time. My classmates were not that open for a new competition - that's their perception of me since I topped the class during the 1st semester of the year. Though I know they didn't like me, I didn't really cared. All my friends and barkada were in the other sections. I felt more at home with them, they accepted me and treated me not as a competition. But as the year progressed, it finally sunk to them that I wasn't a competition but a classmate who just wants to fit in and have tons of friends. I enjoyed my high school life. I gained friends, met great people and been to places I haven't been to. But still, I was expected to do things that are "proper". I settled for a second honorable mention with a Best in Religion award plus the Outstanding Member awards for a couple of organizations.

But as I entered college, everything was different. I wanted to loosen up a bit. And yes, I think I did. You see, I am a goody goody girl. Until now. But it wasn't like grade school or high school anymore. Medyo na lang ngayon.

So I'm wondering. What if I started off as a normal student? Goes to school, gets average grades and no expectations from other people. Siguro if I was that "normal" girl, walang Meng ngayon. But who is the real Meng? I haven't fully figured out that yet. Sino nga ba?

*Saree for the weird organization of thought. Haha.

Shu Uemura

Shu Uemura, the Japanese makeup artist who won acclaim in Hollywood and built an international cosmetics brand under his name, has died. He was 79. He died due to Pneumonia in Tokyo, December 29, 2007.

Thank you for the gift of beauty enhancement. Though the cosmetic line is way out of my budget... Shu Uemura will always be remembered. May you rest in peace.

Happy 18th Birthday Me Ann!

Woohoo. Suffer the consequences of being an 18-year-old. Oh man! I feel so old... Next week (ako naman) will be the start of my last year of teenage fun. Thanks for everything Me Ann! For all the food trips, laugh trips, evil thoughts, OT moments and the crammings. Yehey!

Me and Me Ann :)

Bleed.

I didn't expect that people would react to my previous entry. Sa akin na lang, kung sino man siya. Haha. Honestly. Wala lang yon. Or is it? I just felt like posting something like that here (although, it was based from experience.) Labo!

I've been stressing too much from all the school works! Sheesh! The last time I've stressed this much was way back in my senior high school year. It felt like the whole world was going so fast and I can't catch up. Amidst the bloody readings for our Rizal course and the head shaking memorization for our Bio test tomorrow, here I am blogging like nothing is more important than writing. RC - why do you have to be so damn long? For Pete's sake, the guy's already dead and we dare criticize everything he did for this country? Who cares if he had numerous affairs with different women from all over the world? Haha. (At least, most of them were Filipinas.) Nobody. Well, except maybe for the tons of historians who has stalked poor Pepe after his death - noting even the tiniest details of his life while he was out traveling the world. If I were Pepe, I would be unhappy. But I guess, he wanted it to be this way - seeing every student study his works, his life, his love life and the decisions he made. In all fairness, he was able to meet Dr. Virchow, the one who formulated the last two remaining principles of the cell so that must mean something. So connected nga talaga ang mga subjects. Sa Bio yon ah! Rizal is indeed, one popular guy.

I have to study now although you make my brain bleed like crazy. Hahaha!

Ngayon ko lang napatanuyan, well actually, maraming beses na, na may mga lalakeng hindi makapag-intay. They tell you different stuff at first, then the next thing you know, they're off running to someone "ready" to be with them. Well, if that's what they want, then go. It just proves how low, pathetic and self-centered kind of people they are because they only think about their own happiness. Fine. I'm happy for you, I'm happy that I didn't made the wrong decision and I'm happy that I won't get to see you for the next four years of my life. Haha.

Yun lang. Go figure. *Oyyy, sino kaya to?*

Popping Eye Balls
(note: the following entry contains grammatical errors which i will not bother proofreading or changing anytime soon. please bear with me. haha)

Wow. It's been a week, and I feel like crap. Haha! Although there were no classes yesterday because of the feast of the Black Nazarene, I didn't get much rest because of worrying too much about unending stuff that needs to be done. Well, to start with, next week would be the preliminary exams week, to be followed by the submission of the Karunungan journal review (which I haven't finished or even got close to the middle reading, and there's like 9 more to go), plus the CWTS Institution visitation problem and add everything else - the requirements for the minors. Darn! Just imagine my life if I'm an active member of our dance troupe this semester? Will I still be able to stand up in the morning? Are my bones will still be attached to my body?

Sana matapos na lahatttt! Gusto ko na magkatrabaho. Haha! Basically, wala naman ako masabi, wala rin ako sa mood magsulat kaya eto nagtatagalog/english ako. Sobrang sumasakit ang mga mata ko, parang they're gonna pop out sooner or later. Magugulat na lang ako, huwaat? Where are my eyeballs? Magagaya ako kay Izma, ng the Emperor's New Groove, o di kaya naman dun sa Corpse Bride. And my cool earphones-slash-earplug-look-a-like is ruined. RUINED! Nabingi yung isa, and because of that I can't enjoy total music fun and the heavy-metal-girl-in-me from my Ipod. I hope, people - sa birthday ko, regaluhan niyo ko ng earphone, yung color pink para girly. Haha. Joke lang. (Nagpaparinig na ko.) Seriously, kailangan ko ng spa, masahe, manicure, pedicure, lahat na! Sometimes, I want to end all the misery para wala na kong problema. Haha. Sabi ko na nga ba, hindi na maibabalik ang dati. There's no way that everything would be back to normal, as if nothing happened. Well, it's your choice, not mine or everyone else's. Basta ako masaya akong bata (at maganda pa, ehem). At adik ako sa Freecell. C'mon.

Snapping back to reality, I will try to read Karunungan, read that 117 slide Rizal lecture and Chapters one to seven for our Philippine History, pass Statistics, find time to visit an institution and hopefully, finish my speech or at least, support my major points for our extemporaneous speaking preliminaries for English. I feel the pressure. More, more!

Makikigaya na rin ako. I saw this on Karen's site. Taken from the QuizBox.

I took the Personality Test and man it was good! It's as if I was the one who wrote everything!

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

I Wonder...

"Today, Singapore is the benchmark of education in Asia. While Singapore is busy making records in academic excellence, Japan is making breakthroughs in Information Technology... and the Philippines? Busy setting records like the most number of couples kissing on Valentine's day." -Francis J. Kong

Makes perfect sense. I mean, what the hell?! It's so true. Why can't this country focus on more important things rather than making a fool out of ourselves believing that we can set a Guinness World of Record for most number of couples exchanging their salivas in public? If we are so into world records, why not try setting a world record for feeding the most number of deprived people or at least set a world record for feeding corrupt government officials to the pirannas all at one time? (I would surely see this live!)

We can do better than that. Why do we settle for lousy and stupid stuff when this country is in dire need help of improvement on almost all aspects of it's existence?

Just a thought. I hope someday I can make a difference. Add that to my list of birthday wishes.

A New Year Ahead

I just love the Holidays! So many food, so little time. Haha. It feels weird, it's my second time to spend the new year in this house since we moved here during the 4th quarter of 2004. (Actually, it is already the third, but last year, we spend New Year's Eve at my relatives' house in Las Piñas). I miss the typical New Year in our former home, where all you hear and see are people throwing names at each other whenever they would get drunk or when they just want to create a scene. I never thought I'd miss that.

A new year is ahead and it's almost my birthday. I can't believe that it'll be my last teenage year this 2008. Darn. I'm going to make the best of my 2008, no matter how tough it gets!

I didn't had the chance to say sorry for all those people I offended last year, so I'm taking this opportunity to ask for your humble forgiveness (I just hope you'll be able to read this, whoever you are). I'm not perfect, I may be annoying sometimes but hey, this is me :) At least, you know I'm not being pretentious or anything similar to that. To you, my sincerest apologies.

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I honestly don't want to come back to school yet. I have this big holiday hangover and I don't want it to end yet. January 3 is still too early to come back inside Room 113 in St. Raymund's Building, UST and listen to our professors' lectures.

So, in celebration of the New Year ahead, I'm throwing away to the land of forgotten the issues of 2007. I'm too tired to tackle about those nonsense issues and whether people will like it or not, I don't care. Hahaha. Happy New Year! Iwan na ang masamang ugali, pero dalhin niyo parin kung makakatulong ito paminsan-minsan. Funneeh!