EMO

I should have updated my last post long before this reshuffling thing came out. Now I can't. Even if I already found my planner, it just doesn't feel right to write what I'm supposed to write when I know that when June 10 or 11 starts, the people whom I'll be seeing are not the same people as before.

I knew it. Premonitions haunted me when the last day of the second semester ended. They were reminiscing every bit of what had happened the school year before. They even made videos and tributes. I've seen it coming but I suppressed that feeling because I wanted everything to go smoothly, to go as what everyone would have wanted. Maybe this is one of the reasons why I didn't write anything as a symbol of signing off.

Then this reshuffling issue popped up in the midst of April. We were all alarmed. Hear says here and there and blog entries everywhere. The supposed to be relaxing and unwinding summer nights turned out to be a cruel nightmare. Every night, I would always think about it and wonder what would happen if it was true. The feeling is difficult to explain. Kahit na sabihin niyong mababaw lang 'to and sooner or later we will get on with our lives anyway - my point is, my block went through a lot already for two frigging years and we were not READY for such. They could have told us this would happen earlier. Not even a single warning was given out. Biglaan lang ang lahat.

I tried to keep it cool. I was in denial that this stupid reshuffling had push through. I wanted to shout to release whatever my feelings are but instead, I kept on hoping that it's not true. WEIRD. I haven't felt this way before. I graduated high school and this isn't the kind of feeling that overpowered me. Sure I cried during our graduation back then. I cried because it was all over and I'm going to miss my classmates and barkada and my school. I cried because I know it will happen and accepted the fact that were going on our separate ways when we enter college.

But everything is different now. I wasn't ready. Nobody was. Perhaps not for another two years. I did not cry when we were reshuffled. But the feeling is unexplainable. Paulit-ulit kong sinabi ang mga bagay na hindi ko na mababago. I'll get over. Maybe not now or the next week. But I will.

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Wala man lang consolation prize. =( I guess if it's not meant to be, it will never be.

I will miss my MAD DOGS. I just hope that the bond between us will never fade. I will still wish even if I said I wouldn't. Party at Ron's next week!

Enumerate!

I intended to write an entry, days ago but something keeps interrupting me and my ‘alone-blogging-time’ just couldn’t happen. I was planning to write about so many things when I’m away from the computer but seems like I forget everything when I'm ready to write. Haha! Plus the fact that my dad kept getting in the way. Whenever I would start typing, he keeps popping and asking me to tell my mom to go online (FYI: my dad is out of the country). That went on for several days. It was annoying but I got used to it.

It's not really big of a deal whether I write something here or not. I don't know if someone reads this anyway. Haha! So I told myself, what's the rush? So I made a list. So that I WILL or PROBABLY remember everything I had in mind so that I could finally satisfy my blogging needs. Is there such need? I decided to enumerate stuff on my trusty-and-heavy planner (which by the way, I don't have any intentions of bringing it with me to school because it's freakishly big). Ilang beses kong nasabi ang "so" ha, pansin ko lang! Hahaha!

• The first thing I wrote there was this weird dream of a boy named Joshua. This Joshua guy is my supposed "boyfriend" in my dream. Here I go again with these odd dreams. Is he the one I'm waiting all this time? Or is he just a mix of the male figures I've watched for the past couple of months? I have this super weird crush on Julian McMahon, sooo dreamy. Sayang, I wasn't able to take a glimpse of his face. I was lucky enough that I caught the name of my imaginary boyfriend. Joshua. Haha. Not the hottest name, I know.
  

• I've been very eager to watch a lot of cooking shows lately. Lifestyle Network and the Asian Food Channel provided me great amount of information about different cuisines in different countries. This is one of the many things my mom and I share.

  Her: the passion for cooking. Me: the love for eating.

  So when the TV is tuned to Everyday Italian or Barefoot Contessa or even Chef at Home, I don't really mind. I definitely enjoy seeing more and more of the future dishes that my mom will cook for me. At least, I have a preview of what's in store for my taste buds.
  

• Since I started writing down literally what I should blog about, I've noticed that my handwriting NOW sucks big time! I used to have perfect curves for my handwriting but now, all I see are letters without direction. I hope and pray that I will recover my beautiful handwriting when school starts. Talagang ipagdadasal ko 'yan.
  

• I can't see where this country is going. Where can you find a president just 3 million peso richer than his son who is in the congress? Where do they get all these green stuff? Technically, our money isn't really green. But I like the sound of green. Haha! Iba pa pala ang yaman ng anak niya sa kanya, iba rin sa asawa niya. What the heck?! To think that thousands of Filipinos are homeless, hungry and uneducated while the president and her family is bathing with money intended for the less fortunate is just sickening! How cruel and selfish one can be?

• This entry isn't over yet. Just give me time to remember where I put that enormous planner of mine. =)
  

SUMMER IS OVER.

Yes. It's over. Bumabagyo na eh.

Happy Mother's Day!

Today, I actually got up before my usual wake-up time because it's a very special day for all the mommies out there! (I woke up at around10am! Hurray for me! Achievement na 'to!)

I was hesitant to get up since my eyes aren't ready for the colors of this world (lalim noh?) due to the fact that I slept at 3am again because my twin nephews needed help to make mother's day cards for my mom, their mom and my sister.

They sneaked outside my room while whispering: "Tita Memeng, we need your help!" So being the great aunt that I am, I gave them a little hand, (I supervised, grammar checked, suggested designs and all that card making stuff) but most of the work were on them. It was cute because they really waited for my sister-in-law to fall asleep before they started making the cards. Take note, they did their own sentence construction. It's as if I wasn't needed anymore - they know their English that well. They even wanted to put my name on the cards too since I helped them out daw. Hahaha!

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Today, we ate at Causeway for lunch. Then, went straight to the grocery. I enjoyed the food, as always. Parang fiesta naman nung dinner time. My sister and her family came over to celebrate and feast over my mom's cooking. I wish I could've done it myself, but hey, iba pa rin 'pag si Mama yung nagluto. I did help, though. I made 4 dozens of puto! Haha! The kids loved it. This could be the start of a great future! Hehe!

I love my mom. No words can describe how much she offered her whole life just to take care of me and our whole family (especially ME! Hehe!). Maybe someday, I could be like her too :)

Minerva Sales = simply the Best!

Bizarre

Oh yes. It has been a week or so since I’ve written something sensible here.

First thing’s first. I would like to share with you what’s been up with my sleeping habits. Due to my belief that this would be the last summer of my life as a student, I’ve been RESTING like crazy. I eat, eat and eat at night and drinking coffee has been one of my sinful habits before going to bed. Hmmm... I'm actually itching to make myself a cup of coffee right now.

And yes. Ding Ding Ding! Tadah! I’m wide awake like an owl until 3 in the morning and get up at around, let me say, erm 12:30 in the afternoon, every single day for almost a month now. I think this is why I’ve been dreaming a lot of strange stuff lately.

PROOF of that weirdness? I’ve dreamt of Gaby Concepcion. (Yes, that Dear Heart slash ex-husband-but-still-gwapo-as-ever of Ate Shawie. Haha!) I forgot the whole scenario but I remember clearly that indeed, he was in my dream and the setting was at our old house.

Does this mean that my destiny is to be with someone with the looks of Gaby Concepcion? Or is it because I wasn’t able to finish the MMK episode where he starred in a few weeks ago? HAHAHA!

I also dreamt of an isolated hospital with all the people I know from different places. It was very creepy! I also dreamt that my sister had another baby boy and I was present at the christening while watching them on television with Josef (from PBB) present too. Then there was this one scene in my dream that I was waiting in line at the Main Building in UST, with different people I don’t know and they were making me laugh so hard. I didn’t even know what I was waiting in line for and what I was laughing at. Extremely weird! Ultimate mga kalokohang panaginip talaga yun.

I gotta stop drinking coffee and watching those damn movies before I go to sleep. I think that’s what keeping me from getting all these bizarre dreams. COFFEE!

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A couple of days ago, I went out with Nico and Me Ann. Nagkwentuhan lang, naglibot, nag-Bubble tea, tumawid ng Trinoma para humanap ng makakainan, naglibot ulit tapos bumalik na naman ng SM. Everything was unplanned. I realized that it was tougher to find a place to eat when things are unplanned. I’m looking forward to that Guitar Heroes and WII session, Me Ann. Hahaha!

I am also looking forward to that photo shoot, Pacific. Pagbalik mo from Basilan okei?

I love PLONING! :)

The movie was AWEsome. It's not your typical indie film that tackles about the negative side of this godforsaken country (Pabs' favorite word). The movie made me realize that there is so much more to the Philippines than corruption, Gloria, Lozada, the ZTE scandal, gambling, poverty and all that crap.

The musical score --- nakaka LSS! I swear! Even if I don't understand the lyrics. Hehe!

Sana marami pang pelikulang lumabas na tulad nito hindi katulad ng mga pinapalabas ngayon na puro mga walang katuturan at pag-aaksaya ng kaperahan. Hahaha! Ito rin ang tipo ng pelikula na hindi ka tatayo hangga't di mo napapanood ang "ending". Kaya lang hindi ko pa rin alam kung bakit namatay si Ploning. It got me hanging! *Ay, spoiler. Sorrry.* Hahaha! Sa mga hindi pa nakakapanood, basta, panoorin niyo na lang. Kudos to the whole Production team!

Gina Pareño is SUPERB! Baka siya pa manalo ng best actress award sa monologue niya with God habang umuulan at nakaluhod sa asin. I am speechless. VERY. (It doesn't seem like I am noh? Ang dame kong sinabi eh.) I super adore the quality of the film. I also read at ploning.com that they used the traditional 35mm film! It's pretty expensive for an indie film, right? But it was the right decision! The whole scenery of Cuyo is just breathtaking. I wish I could go there someday!

I also wish I could wait, love and forgive like Ploning did :)

Hurray! I love JUDAY! I love PLONING! Hehe! I made the right decision of choosing Ploning over When Love Begins. Bakit ba? Dapat talaga papanoorin ko yon. But I snapped. I'll watch Ploning instead. Tadaah! I will now officially call myself --Miming. Haha! Nakibagay daw ba sa mga karakter? Ayoko na, Carneeee na.

Special thanks to Miguel for agreeing to go with me. (Even if I dragged him to Elianto, the ladies section and all those girly stuff that guys aren't usually fond of going. )

VERDICT: All my thumbs up. And still, I wish I had plenty (of thumbs).

One Month to Go

It's the first day of MAY and it rained! Does this mean Summer is over?

I can't wait to go to school! :)

But I sure hope that the very intriguing "reshuffling" issue isn't true. College Life wouldn't be the same without my block mates. Yeah, I think it's nice to meet new people and work with them as well.

BUT!!! (A big BUTTTT!)

It's just that, I already grew comfortable with my block and I don't want that to end just like that. We already have plans - group of companies, photo shoots and more victories to conquer. Why start reshuffling us now when we already started 2 years trying to find ourselves and already established strong bonds? Alam ko na nga ugali ng mga kaklase ko eh! Pati mga kalokohan na umiiral sa mga utak ng mga niyan. Kemen!

Damn those people who think reshuffling is a great idea. But maybe this is the chance to be classmates with Corona Boy don't you think? Ahhh. Erase that stupid thought. I already eliminated him from my list, remember? Haha!

Cant wait for Ploning tomorrow! It's a date! Hahahaha!

CA1 forever! :)